Wednesday, April 26, 2017

I'm A Writer. Excuse My Browser History || How I Avoid Writers Block

One of the things I've learned from Camp Nano is that my brain goes wild. Especially when I choose to stay up till 3am trying to make 6k in a single day.  #insane. Another thing I've learned is that us writers do really bizzare things, like asking our relations if they had some bad regret in their past, which route would they take in ending their life. jumping off a bridge, drinking poison ect. *blank stares* Annnddd, we have probably all had to explain to our mothers why we've been looking at names on parenting sites. "I was only trying to name my character!!"

*Does research for darker part of novel* *looks back at browser history*
  • war statistics
  • when was the blender was invented?
  • how many times can you get shot without dying?
  • how to break out of prison 
  • How long does it take for a cabbage to grow? 
  • symptoms of small pox
  • what is the average amount of snow Edinburgh gets each year?
  • how to defend yourself with a random piece of barbed wire and a tomato 
  • greek gods 
  • photos of bombed buildings 
  • psychology of a serial killer
If a random person saw this list.....

Excuse me, I'm a writer. 

Writers block can get me so bad. Like, I won't be able to write for daaayyys, and thats not good. Heres three simple steps on how I beat that nasty mental disease all us writers face! 

1. Write at a set time everyday
This has helped me so much during Camp Nano. I usually write late at night, when my mind is active. It really helps me to have it on my schedule and know there is that set time, where I have to write. 

2. Make goals for yourself 
Camp already has set goals for you, so thats easy! Its pretty cool to reward yourself after you meet your daily goal too. "I will not eat that piece of chocolate cake till I'm done writing 2k!!" 

3. Find a different space
If you have a set writing space where you write every single day, you might want to change it up a bit, if you are suddenly struck with a sudden spasm of writers block. Go down to the coffee shop, sit out on the porch or out in the yard. A change of scenery can do wonders!

ONLY FOUR DAYS LEFT OF NANO! I have 9k to go, to meet my goal! So excited!

What things do you find in your browser history after doing research?
How do you beat writers block? 

Friday, April 21, 2017

Don't Worry, Be Happy

Here's a little song I wrote
You might want to sing it note for note
Don't worry, be happy
In every life we have some trouble
But when you worry you make it double
Don't worry, be happy
Don't worry, be happy now

Life can get stressful, and sometimes it may seem that everything is going against you. For me, I'm having a hard time being patient with a certain situation that is actually quite a big deal, and sometimes I get kind of angry about it not moving forward, or that nothing seems to be working out. But really, when I think about it, and I started to count my blessings, I realized that I really am so blessed, and that one little problem is hardly anything to how many things I am blessed with. I have awesome and supportive parents, and sweet siblings. I can take piano lessons, I'm going to college, I have clothes, I have friends. Life is pretty awesome when you completely forget about the stuff that really irritates you, or that keeps dragging you down, and think about the things that make you happy. Life is pretty awesome. And its such a neat thought that God is in control of everything, and He will let everything work out in the end. God is making things happen for you. Even when you don't see it, even when you can't feel it. Even if its not evident, God is still working on His amazing plan for your life. So don't loose heart, dear, 'cause everything is gonna be okay. 

OHHH AND GUYS, I CHANGED BY BLOG DESIGN! (any my blog name!!) I really wanted a change, something springy and fun. I'm just in love with this new design from DesignerBlogs! I probably have Spring Fever or something because I'm wanting to change everything. I cut my hair super short, and I'm switching my room around, I renamed my blog....Something must be wrong with me! XD 

Love you all, and have a great weekend! 


Wednesday, April 19, 2017

5 things i'll probably still be doing when i'm eighty || record player loves

1. Obsessing Over Bands

Um, yes, I'm still gonna do this when I'm 80. Its probably a crazy thought, but I plan on it! I am actually kind of wondering if I really will love Collabro forever, because its been almost seven months that I've been a fangirl, and I'm still in love! Usually, my obsessions only last 2-3 months, so its lookin' up!

2. Singing Gospel and Broadway Songs in the shower 

Whenever I hop in the shower, its party time. *sings* don't tell me not to fly I've simply got to, if someone takes a spill its me and not you, don't bring around a cloud to rain on my parade!!!!* And when I'm home alone I pretty much grab anything that remotely resembles a microphone, turn up the musical tunes, and its BROADWAY AUTION TIME! *breaks out into you'll be backthats life or defying gravity* *enters stage with top hat and cane, and starts tap dancing* *jazz hands* *can't forget the jazzzzzhannnddss*

3. Dancing 

I'm not the greatest dancer, but I know some, like the waltz, two step, swing ect. Its so fun! When I'm old I would love to join a dancing club. But there are awkward things about dancing to, like when your favorite song comes on and no one wants to dance and you frantically have to drag a guy out onto the floor to dance with you, or when the guy practically rips your arm off while dancing swing.

4. Stay Up Late 

Old habits die hard, or something like that. I will probably always be a night owl. My fam retires way too early for me, and my famous saying is "the night is young!". I'm still dancing around the house at midnight when the rest of my relations are snugly tucked into their beds. People always say 'the early bird catches the worm", and I'm just, "keep the stupid worm, I stayed up till 3am baking a cake, leave me alone to sleep."

5. Be Spontaneous 

I've always been a spontaneous person, and I will probably always be one. Like "Lets go to Walmart and get icecream. Yes, honey, I know its all the way across town, and its 10pm, but no biggie. See you in the car!" I'm the type of person who also jumps into things that might be too much for me. Pretty much, I have a habit of biting off more than I can chew. I can just see myself at age 85 auditioning for The Wicked Witch of The West at a children's theatre or something.

What are some things you'll probably be doing when your 80?
Whats your favorite broadway song?
Are you a night owl or an early riser? 

Saturday, April 15, 2017

we are loved by someone greater than humanity || happy easter

 -We are loved by someone greater than humanity. His name is Jesus. -

I am amazed more and more everyday at Jesus' love for me. I am blown away by the fact that Jesus came to die for me, and it just blows my mind how he is so patient with me even when I fail miserably. One of the songs I've been listening to as we near closer to Easter, constantly reminds me how much Jesus loves me, and its such a comfort to know that 'He loves me more' than I could ever love anyone. Talk about breath taking, right?

The Lord hath appeared of old to me , saying I have loved you with an everlasting love, therefore with loving kindness have I drawn thee. Jeremiah 31:3

I'm really starting to realize how I am so selfish, yet he is selfless. I am so ungrateful, yet he blesses me. I am so unforgiving, yet he forgives me. And He died so I could live, and, I constantly take for granted the fact, that he gave His life for mine.

 I go to church, and every week I see the cross hanging up in the front. I've seen it every Sunday of my life, but do I really stop and think about what the cross means or what it symbolizes? Jesus went through unspeakable pain, for me and you and everyone. Even the people who forsake Him. For the very people who spit at him and called Him names. For the people like us who always mess up. The Bible says our good is like dirty rags, yet he loves us anyways, and that's pretty cool. 

But whats even more amazing is that Jesus rose again on Easter morning, and He still lives! The other day I was just observing our front yard and how the grass is turning green and the flowers are blooming. Its pretty interesting that in winter everything just literally dies. The trees loose their leaves, the flowers die and wither and the very earth seems lifeless and dry, but in spring everything comes alive again out of that death and its so neat to compare that to Jesus's death for you and I, and then life to the season of Spring! Isn't He amazing? So, I just wanted to remind you, that even when you don't feel loved, our feelings may change, but Jesus never does and He loves us with an everlasting love. Rest in the simplicity of His love this Easter, and remember to think about how much Jesus gave up so you and I could have life.

Happy Easter,


Wednesday, April 12, 2017

i never really knew if you were my lighthouse or my storm.

you heard me, but never really listened,
and i learned fast,
that it is such a pity to release a thought,
and have it be returned with silence.

you where a maze with no escape,
a prison without a window,
you where a fire with no flames,
and i never really knew if you where my lighthouse
or my storm.

by your mistakes
you taught me to light a fire that must be seen,
unleash my aspirations with passion,
and never be afraid that my dreams won't come true,
because even if they don't, i would know that i tried
and i lived a life of living and not just existence,
as a person brave, wild and full of life.
as someone who never gave up.
who never stopped trying.

idk, if this even has any significance to my life. XD 

Sunday, April 2, 2017

dear best friend forever

i want to listen to old records with you,
and sing at the top of our lungs to higher in the car with
the windows down and the wind in our hair.

i want to take long walks with you down to the river to skip rocks
and make crowns out of wild flowers for our hair.

i want to watch hello dolly and jane eyre with you,
eat ice cream at 1am, get up early and go take pictures of the sunrise together.

i want to stand with you in, in silence
and look up at the sky,
and think about how amazing life really is.


something i wrote for my best friend who lives 1,000 away