Saturday, December 31, 2016

new resolutions for a new year


-take more walks

-write 30 minutes everyday

-go without sugar for two weeks out of the year

-get more sleep

-read 100 books

-connect with nature more

-smile more

-play all the songs in my les misrebles piano book by next december

-judge people less

-study more

-make new friends

-start a bullet journal

-learn a song on the guitar

-take one college class online

-finish les misrebles

-stand up for myself more


-don't let people run over me

-drink more water

-finish a novel for camp nano in july

-cook more

-get up earlier

-stop thinking about last year

-focus on today

-join a fitness group

-start a thankful jar

-save money

-send more handwritten letters

well, i'm off to eat homemade thai food and play lots of games and watch movies with my fam. i hope you all have a great new year!

lots a love,
-clara


Thursday, December 29, 2016

another year over || you won't believe this, guys! + blog anniversary


Reflections on 2016:

This year has been a year of firsts for me. It was my first time traveling to New York City which was the first major trip I've taken, my first time to sing in Carnegie Hall, my first job, my first time to get my drivers license and drive alone. Its been an exciting year of transition from being just a " kid" to a more independent young adult. Looking back on last year I can say I have learned that life isn't all John Green speeches and frivolity. Ive learned that there are always going to be struggles in life, but there will always be joy if I look for it in the little things. This past year wasn't easy, but I can say its all behind me, the good and the bad, and I'm ready to face the New Year ahead with determination and excitement and a new sense of adventure for all that life will bring me in the coming year. I'll be going to college, which is a whole new challenge in itself, as well as being away from home, and all that college life entails! But I am happy and very, very excited! Bring on 2017! *cheers dramatically*


Okay so this January is my 3rd year blog anniversary, guys! 

I haven't always blogged on Reasons To Smile. My first year was back in 2013 where I blogged in another corner of the internet, that I called Count It All Joy. So if you wanna be technical, this isn't this blogs anniversary, but my overall history of blogging in general. I'm so pumped to celebrate this momentous occasion in my blogging history! You won't believe this, but I will be doing a Q&A video in celebration! Yes, this pitiful, camera shy, blogger you know as Clara will be doing a video! GAHHHH I've never done a video so I'm a little nervous but really excited! So for all you readers, that means: I NEED LOTS OF AWESOME QUESTIONS FROM Y'ALL so drop them in the comments, if you would be so kind. The questions can be totally random, silly, crazy, serious- Ask me about my favorite fictional character, what my least favorite subject is, my top 5 favorite movies, if I've ever eaten squirrel- anything. But please be nice and sweet, and all those lovely things that bloggers are, and refrain from vulgar/inappropriate questions and content, if at all possible!

Stay tuned, and I hope you all have a great 2017! Heres to a New Year of happiness, awesomeness and lots of adventure and excitement. Here here! *clicks glass*

-Clara-

Monday, December 26, 2016

The Words Of Winter


alpenglow (german) a rosy glow that suffuses snow covered mountain peaks at dawn or dusk on a clear day

apricity (latin) the warmth of the sun on a winter day

smultroställe (swedish) "place of wild snowberries" a special place discovered, treasured, returned for solace and relaxation; a personal idyll free from stress or sadness

brumous (traditional english) of grey sky's and winter days; filled with heavy clouds or fog; relating to winter or cold, sunless weather


immergr√ľn (german) a plant that retains green leaves throughout the winter, symbolizing the sign of life even through the cold and dark seasons of life

brontide (traditional english) the low rumble of distant thunder

serein (french) the fine light rain that falls from a clear sky at sunset or the early hours of night; evening serenity

chionophile (greek) a person who loves cold weather and snow

peiskos (german) the feeling you get when you sit in front of a fireplace and enjoy its warmth



-i like misty autumn mornings, and cold snowy winter nights. rainstorms bring me peace, thunder sets my soul alight. give me candlelight, long books, tea, early darkness, a silent street.-

i hope you all had a great christmas,
hugs,
c.r

Thursday, December 22, 2016

Things I Love About Christmas || Second Day Of Winter


Happy second day of winter! Also, a happy cookie exchange day, national abilities day, and national date nut bread day! *rolls eyes* (The people who make these things up have too much time on their hands)

Black tea with cream
Frank Sinatra's Christmas album 
Christmas tree lights 
Paper snowflakes hanging in the window
Christmas cards 
Glass nativities 
Snowball fights and making snowmen
Candles 
Decorating cookies
Downtown bustling with shoppers
Holiday music playing on my 1977 radio
A blazing fire  
Saying "Merry Christmas" to the Starbucks workers and customers at work *knows I'm annoying* 
Watching old movies like The Best Christmas Pageant Ever with the fam 
Sledding on toboggans 
The house smelling of cinnamon, holly and orange peels
Going on christmas caroling around the neighborhood with friends
Late nights reading Les Misrebles and watching Jane Eyre and not worrying about waking up cause ITS BREAK *breaks out in the Hallelujah Chorus*
Christmas tree lots
Holiday choir concert
Iceskating with my bro
Driving around town looking at Christmas lights
Escaping the house to get gifts
Thinking about and plotting my novel for Camp NaNo 2017
Singing opera to Christmas songs with my co-workers 
Kings College Choir's broadcast Christmas concert over the radio on Christmas Eve 

2016 has gone by way too fast. Like guys, Christmas is in two days. Its been a crazy year, but a fun one! I'm so glad I'm finally on Christmas break! NO MORE MATH FOR TWO WHOLE WEEKS! *legit screams in excitement* 

Okay, so my family always opens gifts on Christmas Eve before church. Most normal people *dramatically stares at my mother* like in movies and stuff open gifts on Christmas morning. I've always wanted to wait until morning to open gifts but its sort of a family tradition, and my siblings prefer it because they get to open their stuff sooner. Am I the only one who opens presents on Christmas Eve? Hugs to all you lovelies out there, and I hope everyone has a Merry Christmas! 

Isaish 9:6 For unto us a child is born. Unto us, a son is given and the government shall be upon his shoulders and his name shelled be called, Wonderful Counselor, The Might God, The Everlasting Father, The Prince of Peace 



-Clara 

Sunday, December 18, 2016

5 Ironies of The French Revolution: From The View Of A Highschool History Nerd


1. The French Revolution was lead by Napoleon to end dictatorship from King Louis XVI, but Napoleon crowned himself which was anti-Revolutionary following the war. After the trouble of the French Revolution, France just ended up with another dictator. Talk about an active paradox.

2. King Louis XVI was said to be involved in improvising the invention of the guillotine, by suggesting the use of the triangular blade to ensure a sharper, quicker cut of the head (eww) something he would experience some years later.

3. When things really heated up in France, King Louis the XVI and Marie Antoinette literally ran for their lives and obviously attempted to escape the country. Buuuutttt, they were caught at the border. wa-wa-wa Even for the people living in Versailles, it was difficult to identify the royal family. There were no papers, paintings, sketches (and obviously no selfies) of the King and Queen. But there was one direct contact between the French and the people. The coins. So their escape was foiled by the profile of the King on the coins of the French. They were then brought back to Paris and sentenced to death. Well thats unfortunate. *laughs at my own joke*

4. The beginning of the French Revolution was started by the storming of the Bastille Prison by the hands of the revolutionaries. (they were peasants so they didn't have weapons or dynamite) They said they were storming the Bastille to free the revolutionaries held inside, but in all reality there were only 7 people in the prison. The real reason was to get guns. 



5. The Tennis Court Oath was one of the first acts of defiance of the French Revolution. They 3rd party said they were going to make their own assembly, which didn't depend on the royals. When they walked out of the National Assembly to take a break, the king locked the doors and said " Sorry guys you can't go in there. And if you can't assemble. How you gonna be a national assembly??" (I'm paraphrasing of course) So the peasants took of to a tennis court and made the infamous tennis court oath to become their own national assembly.

These have been the results of my thorough investigation of the French Revolution. I am quite inthralled with the time period. *dramatic tone and hand gestures* And I have sworn to conquer Les Miserables (geez I don't even know how to spell it??) and A Tale of Two Cities by the end of winter!! Ha ha! Even though Les Miserables is the size of a large cinderblock I shall prevail! Yes I shall conquer! 


Tuesday, December 13, 2016

17 Signs That Show Your A PK


I'm a PK. My dad has pastored his own church for a few years of my life, and I grew up in a church where my dad preached every so often under the main pastor. I guess all of us kids at church felt like we were preachers kids, cause our dads always taught something or another. So, from all my years as an experienced pastors kid, these points are the proof I have gathered, that I am a full blooded daughter of a pastor.

1. If you were brought up thinking that "don't run in church" was the 11th commandment. 

2. Your second home is church.


3. When your dad uses something embarrassing you've done as an illustration in his sermons and everyone turns around and looks at you like….




4. If those paper pads and stubby pencils in the pew benches were what got you through those interminable sermons when you were six or even 16... *grins sheepishly*

5. If you know every song in the hymn book.


6. When you drink the remaining communion grape juice after the Lords Supper. 


7. When your dad says "ever head bowed, every eye closed" I just be over there like:



8. If people automatically think your called to the ministry.

9. Your the favorite kid to all the older folks in the church, and they pinch your checks and tell you how sweet you are. *this has happened to my younger siblings before* 

10. If you have ever been asked to teach a sunday school class.

11. If your the first one to arrive and church and the last to leave.

12. When you try to talk to your parents after church, but they have to talk to the people in the congregation first. 

13. When your mom tells you not to eat all the brownies cause they are for the church. But you are a part of the church.

14. If you know what "raise my Ebenezer" means. High five and ice cream if you know what song this is from!

15. If your musically inclined in more than one way. 

16. If you know exactly how many chairs are in the sanctuary.

17. If you think thou shall not steal a families pew is the 12th commandment

Sunday, December 11, 2016

Salt To The Sea by Ruta Sepetys || Book Review

                   Winter, 1945. Four teenagers. Four secrets.
Each one born of a different homeland; each one hunted, and haunted, by tragedy, lies…and war.
As thousands of desperate refugees flock to the coast in the midst of a Soviet advance, four paths converge, vying for passage aboard the Wilhelm Gustloff, a ship that promises safety and freedom. Yet not all promises can be kept.

Inspired by the single greatest tragedy in maritime history, bestselling and award-winning author Ruta Sepetys (Between Shades of Gray) lifts the veil on a shockingly little-known casualty of World War II. An illuminating and life-affirming tale of heart and hope- Summary taken from Goodreads. 
I picked this book up at the library along with the authors other book Between Shades of Grey. Salt to The Sea has been one of the few books that has really made and impact on me, and has become one of my favorites. 

 This book was amazing. The novel was so carefully written, interwound with compassion and hope among such a time where hate and cruelty was present everyday of the characters lives. This novel left me with a feeling of hopefulness, love and inspiration although the events in the book were heart wrenching and at times very depressing. I think the author had a sense of what these four teens were going through although she had never lived during their time. I think thats a real talent, when you can get a hold of the feelings that they must have felt and the things that they experienced. Her writing made me rejoice with the characters and cry along with them. I also admired the authors ability to provide such depth in the characters role in this story. It was truly amazing. It was that kind of book where you feel as if you lost some of your best friends after the book is read. I'm still missing all of them. Like a lot. Maybe a little more than I should.  As some people have told me. *That constant question that all book geeks ask* "Why is it that most of the time, the best people are found in books? Why can't they be real?"

I loved the way the author wrote the book from alternating view points of four teens. It was really neat to see how their accounts fit together. The book also kept me in suspense. Each of the characters had a secret that wasn't revealed until the end, and it wasn't predictable or easily guessed. Predictable endings is something I find a lot in books which makes the read not as enjoyable. But this book wasn't like that. The novel was also romantic (in a good way), which I loved. I won't go into detail about Florian and Joana Me: *squeals* And guys its just like-" * Julia covers my mouth*, but if your a hopeless romantic, like myself, read this. Like now. Me: "Okay, okay I'll be quiet now...." 

Not only were the main characters amazing, but the supporting characters as well. In both of the authors books I have read, some of the supporting characters names were not provided, but were a big part in the story, and went by names such as Sorry Eva, Shoe Poet or the Bald Man. The author didn't describe the features of the characters either, which I really like in a book. It gave me a chance to imagine and come up with my own view of the characters and their surroundings. 

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I wouldn't change anything about this book. It was all so realistic and honest, filled with love, truth, hope and forgiveness. I hope you read this book, because I believe everyone should know about the story of the Wilhelm Gustaff. Lastly I would like to say how hard it was for me to not included spoilers in this review, because I just wanna tell you all about everything! I had to cut everything I wrote in this review to the bare minimum. It was so hard, but I refrained. 

Friday, December 9, 2016

Why Yours Truly Is Far From Being A Mechanical Genius || Broken Down At The Library

My last experience with cars taught you yet another thing about yours truly. She does not get along with cars. But yet, being her awkward absentminded self, she had to face another battle with not a car, but a truck. *cringes* My dad has this huge truck (Well actually from the guys point of view its probably not that huge. In all likelihood, they would rather have something bigger, cause they're guys, but anyways...) which we affectionately call Tin Lizzie. I drove it to work, then after my shift I got back in the truck and was planning on driving to the library to take my books back before I went home. I drove to the the library, returned my books and went back out to the truck.

But guess what?? THE STINKIN' TRUCK WOULDN'T START, right? Yeah yeah, I was thrilled.
So here I was stuck at the library at night. Its pitch black, creeps are hanging around outside, and Tin Lizzie won't start. Great. I try and try to start it again and again, but it just makes this weird noise that oddly sounded like a hippo having an asthma attack. I tried for about 5 minutes straight, to no avail. I didn't want to flood the motor or blow it up or anything so, in my current state of panic, I ran inside the library, to find someone who might be able to help me.

Me: "My truck is broke down, or won't start or something."

Library lady: "What year is your truck?"

Me: "Uhhhh, I have no idea. Its from the 70's or something?" *It was actually a 1986 Chevy*. I virtually know nothing about this truck, guys. I don't even know where to find the registration in that machine if I ever got pulled over. 

Library lady: "Well, the battery is probably dead if it won't start. Do you need to use the phone?"

Okay, so I didn't even think of asking to use the phone. I usually don't think straight when I am in a situation like this. *covers face in embarrassment*

Me: "Oh uh, actually that would be great!"

I called my dad and he kindly came all the way down to the library with spark plugs, er ah, jumper cables, but we didn't need them cause the battery wasn't dead. I still have no idea why it wouldn't start. Dad got in the truck and of course after a few revs, he got it started. I was just standing there like, "howwww???"


So this concludes another installment of public embarrassment of yours truly. (don't you dare judge me) Stay tuned. Most likely there will be more stories of this kind in the future. Hopefully not, but I can't change fate.

Do you have a story to share?
Am I alone in my misfortunes with vehicles? 

Tuesday, December 6, 2016

Its You



i know you're scared right now,
maybe you miss someone
maybe your heart hurts a little- or a lot.
or maybe your not quite sure of who you are, or who you want to be.
you want that feeling back. the one where it doesn't seem
like the whole world is against you, but its still here. 
it never really left. 
and one day, you will realize that the only person who can find it again
is you.

Sunday, December 4, 2016

The Ultimate Guide to Christmas Shopping For The Teen With Virtually No Money


Speaking from my own experiences, Christmas can be an expensive time of year. Especially for us teens who are saving for our futures, weather it be saving to buy a car, college, sports, or traveling. So I've put together this lovely list of things you can make yourself or buy for less money than buying gifts for your family and friends brand new.

For The Girls 

-Body scrub, lip balm, bath salts and homemade bath bombs make wonderful gifts. They are cheap and fun to make! Check out my EOS Lip balm Refill DIY post while your at it!

-Knit something fun. I'm not a big knitter, but sashay scarves  are amazing! They are super duper easy, but look complicated when finished. (So people think your an expert knitter)You can also do all sorts of things with the sashay material like sew it into hats or crocheted infinity scarves.

-Everything in a jar is perfect for any occasion, (birthdays, anniversaries ect ect.) and make great stocking stuffers.

-Homemade baked goods are perfect for anyone. Homemade freezer jam, peppermint bark, hot apple cider cinnamon spice mix   and the best brownies are some of my favorites, and are sure to make your family and friends drool!

-Go pick up a cute journal at Barnes and Noble or Ross or create this adorable handmade one!

-Gift cards to Starbucks, iTunes or Walmart are great gifts for any girl, or guy for that matter.

-Vintage teacup candle DIY

For The Dudes

-Coffee mugs and are easy to make and really cute if your artsy. Check out this site for to go cups for dads or bros on the go!

-T-shirts with sarcastic comments, or aprons if your dad likes to bbq or cook! I've been looking at this one for my dad.

-Take him out for a concert. A few years ago, I took my dad to Handel's Messiah preformed by the city choir and symphony. We got all dressed up, and we both had a great time!

-Personalized picture frames.

-Movie tickets. Always fun.

-Anything sweet. Peanut butter chocolate fudge is one of our family favorites!

-Memory slideshow cd with music and photos is bound to make anyone tear up.

For The Sibs

-PVC homemade marshmallow guns

-Candy. Need I say more?

-Costumes. are always great for kids. Make them their favorite movie characters costume from scratch, or if your not crafty and good at sewing like yours truly, buy them cheap at Walmart or Target.

-Homemade play dough is the best and smells amazing! Check out this recipe for edible play dough. You will want to eat it!

-Board games. Monopoly, Wits and Wagers, Sorry, Are you Smarter Than A 5th Grader, Racko and Sequence are some of my family favorites.

-Going out and iceskating, watching a movie together, or even feeding the ducks at the park is always a way to make your sibling feel special and grown up!

-Create a Christmas treasure hunt on Christmas eve for your sibs. Create riddles which lead them all over the house or even outside to discover a big surprise!


Thursday, December 1, 2016

See Ya Later November || Favs

Soooo like whaaaa??? Its December already???


Obviously life has been crazy busy, and time just kinda sneaked away. 2016 is going by too fast, don't you agree?! I've been such a busy bee this month, but its been awesome. Work, school (lots of algebra, ugh), choir and piano seem to be the focus of my life right now. I'm prepping for a piano master class this month, which I'm thrilled about. This is my second year attending, and I'm looking forward to not being a newbie. Ohhh, and guys. It literally started snowing about an hour ago. I don't know whether to be happy or not, cause I DONT LIKE WINTER, but decorating the house, hot chocolate, singing Handel's Messiah in choir, sweaters, new books, paper snowflakes, candles and Christmas music (#bingcrosby) on the radio is just making me feel completely into the Christmas spirit! 

So, now onto some of my November favs. 

1. Check out Vanessa's Blogger Gift Exchange post, if you haven't already! She and Jo have such a great idea about doing blogger appreciation posts. 

2. Julia's poem punched me in the heart. But don't all her poems do that? She's such a talented writer! 

3. Elizabeths post, Things To Do on A Rainy Day was so fun to read! She has a lot of fun little things in her post!

4. Morning's Blogger Yearbook idea is just simply brilliant! 

5. Sarah's November In Review post  was fabulous to read! Congrats on 30k, Sarah!

6. I got a laugh out of Naomi's post, If Period Drama Characters Had Internet Bios 

7. Lauren writes wonderfully, and her posts always give me the feels. Like this one.


Congrats to all of you who finished NaNo alive! I'm so proud of you all! Even though I didn't participate this year, I know you all worked very hard, and I loved keeping up with your NaNo posts! Great job! 


Monday, November 28, 2016

How I Destroyed The Family Car || Spark Plugs


Everything started out great. My brother and I were driving to youth group on Sunday night. We arrived in the parking lot, I turned off the engine, put the keys in my purse and casually walked into the church. Two and a half hours later, everyone noticed that my lights were flashing like crazy out in the parking lot... weird, right?

So, everyone races out to the parking lot with me so we try to figure whats wrong with the car. I was literally freaking out. Why were these stupid lights flashing? Like they have no right to scare me like this! I thought I had DESTROYED MY FAMILY'S CAR. I could think about was "HOW AM I GONNA PAY TO FIX THIS MESS???" I get in and try to start the car, but the dashboard just flashes bananas at me.  I get out, the youth leader tries to start it, but, again no luck. We decided that we should open the hood to see if anything looks wrong, but I don't know how to pop the hood. Lets just say I'm not mechanically inclined. But we finally figured it out in the pitch-black parking lot, with the light of an iPod aiding us in our search.

All the while I was thinking about how I was gonna tell my dad about the car...like



Youth leader: "Looks like your batteries are dead."
Me: "Ugh, oh great! Well, at least its not broken. Does anyone have spark plugs in their car?"
Everyone: *laughing* *pointing at me* *rolling all over the ground with hysterical laughter*
Me: "What??"
Youth leader: "Uhhh *chuckles* they are actually called jumper cables!"

Ha ha, it turned out that I had left my head lights on, and the battery had died. Thankfully someone did have spark plugs..er uh jumper cables in their car, and everything was fine.

Me: "I guess I have to have it happen at least once in my life, right?"
Youth leader: "Uh, it will happen more than once. Just wait till you lock your keys in your car!"

Wednesday, November 23, 2016

20 Problems That Book Worms Have To Deal With Daily


1. You'll never be able to read your favorite book for the first time ever again.

2. Ripply book bottoms from reading in the bath.


3. Books that won’t stay open when you’re trying to read, and eat a sandwich at the same time.

4. Worrying about your favorite author’s health (for selfish reasons).

5. Not having enough bookshelf space in your room to hold all your books.

6. When your boss won't give you a sick day because Beth March just died. 

7. Purses that can't even fit a paperback into them.

8. Your co-workers think your a geek because your books are always laying around in the break room. 

9. AWFUL MOVIE ADAPTIONS THAT SHOULD BE THROWN OFF THE PROVERBIAL FACE OF THE PLANET 

10. Those mysterious stains in the pages of borrowed books. 

11. Not being able to find a comfortable position when you read in an arm chair. 

12. Reading the most breathtaking book ever and having no one to talk to about it.

13. Looking at the last page of a book because you can't wait to find out what happens in the end, then you find out and the book is spoiled. #me

14. People who hate books they've NEVER. EVEN. READ.



15. Moaning and crying in anguish when you find out that Mr. Rochester is already married.

16. Starting a series by checking it out at the library only to discover you got book two of the series. 

17. When your book bag handles break because it has suffered one too many a terrorizing load. 

18. Having crushes on fictional characters. 

19. Going into depression when Rudy died.

20. Knowing that Mr. Darcy isn't a real person. 

Monday, November 21, 2016

Whats New With Clara? || I Need Book Recommendations


words || creek, anonymous, indigo, overture, cathedral, zephyr, benevolence

songs || who i am by jessica andrews, hello by adele, keep walking by toby mac, higher by unspoken, milonga del angel by astor piazolla, THE JANE EYRE, AND ATONEMENT SOUNDTRACK ovbs

books || between shades of grey by ruta septyes, julius caesar by shakespeare, lord byron poetry, agatha christie short stories, the pickwick papers by charles dickens, the house of usher by edgar allen poe, a separate peace by john knowles

miscellany || hanging out with friends at youth group, learning how to play basketball with my bro (i'm a failure), bible mad gab, homemade hot chocolate, hand knit mittens, getting excited about thanksgiving travels, mango kombutcha, seeing your breath vaporize outside at night

smells || fresh ground coffee, homemade cinnamon rolls, carmex, popcorn, english breakfast tea, pumpkin spice candle, fresh air, wood smoke from the stove, new books, lavender essential oils

Btw, do you guys have any book recommendations? Cause I'm kind of running out of books to read. At the moment I'm reading Between Shades of Grey by Ruta Sepetys, but I don't know what I'm gonna read after that. I've read pretty much all the classics like, To Kill A Mockingbird, The Great Gatsby, A Tale of Two Cities and so on, and now I want some not-so-classic books to read, maybe something more modern. I really enjoy historical fiction, not necessarily Christian historical fiction, but some books that are gonna be a good, clean read. So, please drop some of your favorite reads in the comments, if you would:)

-Clara


Sunday, November 13, 2016

7 Things I Learned My Senior Year || First Dance


So, amazing Sophie, over here has just launched this brilliant idea that all of the seniors write a post on what they have learned in their last year of high school. Several of my amazing friends like Julia and Amanda have done a splendid post, and I've decided to join the party! So, 'ere we go! 

- I have really learned about friends a lot this year. I have realized how, many people are "fair weather friends" and just hang out with you when they don't have anyone else to hang with. I've learned it hurts, and I often let myself go through a lot just to hang out with people. And, I've learned how precious true friends are to have.. that they are rare. You probably won't have many of them, but treasure the ones you do have. 

- Do something crazy, and frivolous once in awhile. Get a group of people together to do the mannequin challenge at the mall, or go iceskating or play hockey on a real, authentic pond.  Do something fun that you don't usually do. 

- Staying organized is the key to success. Get a planner together to write out your daily "to do" list, school subjects, grades ect. Its really helpful!

- Love your family, and spend more time with them. Being my last year in high school, and living at home, it has seriously just hit me that, I'll be at college next year. Gahhh... "creepy" (Only about two people with get the quotation marks. XD) I won't have my mom to hug every morning, or cry on her shoulder when I'm having a hard day. I won't have my dad to do the Baymax knuckles handshake thingy with. I'm excited about college, but also scared. Hug your family, peeps, and tell them you love them cause they are pretty important, and have helped you come this far in your life. 

-"What if I fail?" What if you don't. Do the things that make you scared.

- Find your niche. Discover something that you are good at and go for it. For me, its playing the piano. Its something that I do to relax. It makes me happy.

- Chocolate heals even the deepest of wounds. Sometimes, life stinks, guys. So thats when you need to break out the chocolate love.

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Last friday, I went to my first dance. It was awesome. Prom isn't something most people think homeschoolers do. The average person defines homeschooler as Homeschooler: n.  One who has no friends, social skills, and/or education. Often found wearing overalls. But...one should not simply assume that all homeschoolers are anti social. *re-enacts Boromir face* We are actually pretty awesome.


The evening was filled with chatting with friends, food, a chocolate fountain and italian cream sodas (like how cool is that) being crazy awkward, and obviously dancing. I really enjoyed the group dances like We Like To Party, Cha Cha Slide, Virginia Reel and just solo dancing in a circle with a group of friends. Shake It Off and Trouble were pretty fun to dance to. I did dance a few slow dances, and swing, which was probably my ultimate favorite. 20's swing music, a partner who knows what he's doing and a disco ball. #awesomeness

Monday, November 7, 2016

10 Epic Shakespeare Insults That Every Shakespearian Should Know




You scullion! You rampallian! You fustilarian! I’ll tickle your catastrophe!

Go, prick thy face, and over-red thy fear, thou lily-liver’d boy.

O, there has been much throwing about of brains.

There’s no more faith in thee than in a stewed prune.

Your brain is as dry as the remainder biscuit after voyage.

I would challenge you to a battle of wits, but I see you are unarmed.

I will speak daggers to her.

I desire us to be better strangers.

I do wish thou were a dog, that I might love thee something.

The tartness of thy face sours ripe grapes.

You, minion, are too saucy.

I looovvee Shakespeare. He's LYFE. His romance is on point, his sense of irony is riotous, his plots are simply genius, and his characters are seriously to die for. omgosh.  If you want mayhem, poison, blackmail, passion, death, romance, explosives and sword fighting, Shakespeare is for you. Give him a try. Reading his stuff isn't really so bad as everyone says. Especially if you recite the dialogue (more like scream the dialogue) when your home alone in the mirror. Now, about these insults...I would never tell someone that I wish they were a dog, so I could love them something, with serious intent.....well I don't think I would... *low menacing chuckle*



But, they are fun to use jokingly. Plus, no one will probably even know what your talking about, or that you even insulted them, bc thats the beauty of Shakespearian. 

Friday, November 4, 2016

Stars || 8:07pm


November 4th 8:07pm

I look upward into the black night sky showered with stars. Its been a long time since I've laid out in the yard at night like this. The November chill bites my nose and fingertips, but I don't mind. The beauty of the sky keeps me there.

The crescent moon, silky and smooth glows softly, far above the silhouettes of trees and of mountains. I spot Orion and the little dipper, and strain to see a shooting star sail across the atmosphere, bright at first, but slowly fading.

I feel so inadequate and microscopic sitting under the heavens that go on forever and ever.

I sigh and think to myself, that I don't remember the last time I was this happy, about something so small. The last time I was happy to be alive in this crazy world.

Sunday, October 30, 2016

Note To Self


Note to self,

Don't waste energy on people who aren't worth your time. Find that person who likes you....not because of your clothing style, music taste, how pretty you are or how much you weigh, but because of who you are inside. Find that friend that loves you because of your heart. The one who respects your thoughts. The person who knows you better than anyone else, and the one that heard you when you never said a word. The person who makes your problems their problems, and the one that will never leave you, ever. Thats a true friend. Don't let go of them.

Don't tolerate anyone who pretends to be your friend, because, believe me, they will never amount to much. Not all your friends are going to be as close as a sisters or brothers, but don't let yourself be hurt by people who don't really care about your feelings, berate and hurt you. Don't let yourself go through that just for the sake of hanging out. Stop trying so hard for people who don't care.

Love the true friends that you do have, because they are rare....as rare as diamonds. Let them know how much you care about them. And endeavor to be that friend to others who loves unconditionally.

Friday, October 28, 2016

7 Reasons Why Extroverts Struggle Too

Yes yes, we know introverts have it rough. "Today was great until people," right? Introverts relish in sitting in the corner, eating Doritos and petting a cat at a gathering or party while extroverts appear as social zealots, gallivanting around the room conversing with everyone. But the truth is, extroverts struggle too. Yes we feel insecure and shy, and sometimes we want to go hide under a rock with Pinterest and a bowl of double chocolate oreo ice-cream, but that doesn't make us introverted. Not quite. 


1. Extroverts Can Be Shy Too (sometimes)
When I was 13, I was very insecure and hid from all human existence besides maybe my direct family. I didn't have any friends, besides like one. Yes, I was shy, but I wasn't introverted...I was simply scared of letting my bubbly self show. When I went through this "phase", I really wanted to show the extrovert I was to others, but I literally could not do it!  The truth is that people think extroverts never get shy, but thats just not the case. For me its really who I am around that determines the extent of my socialization. Like at work, I pretty much stick to myself, and I don't act too crazy or funny like how I normally am around my friends or family. When I am surrounded by adults I normally go into "adulting" mode and act mature, but when I am surrounded by other teens I can be pretty...lets just say "extroverted", and thats who I truly am.


2. Extroverts Feel Like They Talk Too Much
I talk too much. I'm probably the most chatty teen evvaarrr. I always need to be talking to someone....(I could literally carry on a conversation with a tree stump if I had to) because that is how I recharge. I feel refreshed after a social get together, a phone call or even after a small talk session with the grocery store clerk. Thank goodness for my mom! She sits through my rants and random chinwags. I honestly don't know what I'd do without her to talk to.


3. People Think We're Flirt'in When We're Just Be'in Social 
Omgosh. This is the really awkward thing about extroverts, and something I'm very self conscious about. Extroverts are excitable, and really smiley (not saying that introverts aren't) and we tend to talk in a way that may make the opposite gender think we are flirting, when we actually aren't.... I don't know how extroverts really look like when they flirt cause I haven't had that experience yet...hehehhe... but I'm sure its very entertaining.


4. Being Social With Strangers When They Don't Wanna Talk
Talking to the dude at Taco Bell being like "Hey, hows your day going? Nice weather today, huh?" and all you get is *rolls eyes* ookkkayyy...."awkward" *whispers under breath*


5. We Feel Incapable of Deep Conversation
We feel like we can't talk about deep things. We tend to be more "humorous" with private things which makes it hard to express feelings to those people we care about. Like if you wanna tell your mom that you really appreciate her, but you don't know how to do it in a seriously way, cause you just feel awkward telling her. Not because thats not what you feel, it just doesn't come naturally. 


6. We Feel Pressured to Keep The Conversation Going
We feel like we need to be talking all the time. When we go out with friends, we feel like we always need to be talking, and that silence just isn't suppose to happen. Sooo we end up saying awkward things to keep the conversation going. Extroverts care about others feelings, maybe a little too much. We hate offending people, and we don't want people to think we don't find them interesting and fun to be with, even if we don't. XD




7. We Know We Are Awkward But We Like Getting Attention
We may do rash things, and make ourselves look stupid, but we enjoy entertaining others, getting attention, and we laugh too much, but thats what makes us awesome. Almost as awesome as introverts. 

Are you introverted or extroverted?
Do you relate with any of these points? 
What was your favorite GIF?


Thursday, October 27, 2016

Book Review || Surviving The Angel of Death By Eva Kor



When my mom first mentioned this book to me, I was skeptical. "Yeah, yeah, another World War 2 book again." I thought. "Just the mentioning of Nazis, experiments, children...no." But something in me pushed me to pick up the book and start reading. When I got started, I couldn't put it down. I read the book in its entirety in 2 hours. Ive read dozens of books on the holocaust and watched several movies and documentaries about the topic, but I have never read anything like this book before. This review is hard to write, just as this book was exceptionally hard to read. Eva Kor's 150 paged account of her experience at Auschwitz was haunting, shocking, heartbreaking and, surprisingly it was extremely motivational. 

Eva was a fighter. She fought to save her own life as well as her twin sisters. She outsmarted authority, and lived to walk out of the gates of Auschwitz, alive, unlike most. She had a strong will and an amazing mental positivity which fed her fight for survival, which was amazing for a 10 year old girl. This book was eyeopening to the fact of the true horrors of Adolf Hitlers reign over German in the way of the concentration camps. For one thing, I knew about the gas chambers and the massive crematories, but I had never read about the experiments done on twins in the camps. The Nazis would conduct procedures on the one of the twins, injecting a deadly disease into their blood that would eventually kill them. Then they would kill the other twin, and preform autopsies on both bodies to compare the sick organs to the healthy. Eva and her sister where in all reality human guinea pigs....Eva being the one injected with the deadly disease. The doctors also experimented with changing eye color, hair color and even the sex of the child. This was horrifying to read about. Who could do such a thing to an innocent child? No one, and especially no 10 year old should have to go through something so awful. I would say this book is graphic, not because Eva Kor's descriptions are detailed and extensive, but just because of the facts stated in the book. For this reason I would not recommend this book to anyone younger than 15. Yet, when I got to the last page of the book, Eva turns her horrifying story into a motivating, inspiring take away for her readers, reaching out to those who have been hurt. In the end she forgave the Nazi's for all they did to her and so many others. I could never do that. She wrote that forgiveness is what freed her soul from all the anger she had held for so many years. For me, thats incredible to think about. I rate this book 5 stars.  It is defiantly a must read for everyone! To watch an interview with Eva Kor where she tells her life story click here


What I took away from this book: Recently, the whole Black Lives Matter promotion has escalated massively. People are constantly calling others racist, saying they are prejudice because of their skin color. They think they are fighting for peace, saying they are oppressed and abused, when they have never really known war. People today know nothing of what racist truly means. Hitler, killed Jews. He had them burned alive, gassed, hung...beaten. He did this to children. Children. Americans today, do not know what racist truly means. A lot of people joke around with the word "racist" which really annoys me, because its not something to be made fun of. I'm not against african americans or any race for that matter, but this really made me stop and think about what the word racist really means, rather than what todays world is saying. 

Monday, October 24, 2016

Stop Waiting


Patience has always been a hard thing for me.  I always need to know now. I'm always waiting to start life. I'm always waiting for that moment when I'm an adult. I'm always waiting for another day. I'm always waiting for college. I'm always waiting for something better than what I have. But, time and waiting are strange things. Time is always working, always running, never stopping. Once a second goes by, nothing in the world can make it reverse. What we do now can't be changed in the the future. When I'm constantly upset over what isn't happening at this moment, I realize that I miss out on all the things that are happening now. And thats the problem with me. I think I've got everything wrong. I shouldn't be waiting for life, because life is happening, right now. I don't realize that all the things I'm waiting for will come soon enough, and that I should enjoy my life where I am now, and while I can because one day I know I'll wake up, and all the precious things I have now will be gone, forever, and I know that I will never get them back. 

I need to cherish my family and the moments I have with them, because one day, they will be gone.

I need to be willing to accept change now, even if I don't like it.

I need to love being crazy, 16 year old, goofy, awkward, clumsy me because one day I'll be grown up. 

I need to live in the moment. I need to live today, because one day, today will be tomorrow. 

Stop waiting for Friday, for summer, for someone to fall in love with you, for life. Happiness is achieved when you stop waiting for it and make the most of the moment you are in now. -Unknown 

Saturday, October 22, 2016

NEW BLOG DESIGN! || October Faves


If you all haven't noticed yet, I have a NEW BLOG DESIGN!
How awesome, right!? I purchased this cute design from Etsy for $7.50, last week, but it was one of those designs where you have to install it yourself. Okay, so I am horrible with machines. I can't sew, I can't mow a lawn (long story), I know virtually nothing about computers, designing blogs, not to mention installing designs. So, I texted my soul sista Julia,  and asked her if she could install if for me. And being the most awesome human being in the world that she is, she said yes, and had in installed within an hour! (It would have taken me 100 years) Thanks, Jules! You da best! *throws confetti and hands her mechanical sining thank you card*

Having a new design really brings a certain measure of inspiration. I have lots of ideas for new posts, and I even updated my about page. Check it out. Lets just spit out the truth..my old bio was wwwaayyyy too long, and boring, right? Admit it *shakes you into agreement* Reading Naomi's post, about internet bios, really inspired me to change that old stuff.

I'll stop rambling now and move onto some October Faves:



Katie Grace's post on how to plot a novel: was fantastic. I have always wanted to give NaNo a try, but I have never gotten up the nerve to actually do it. But some day, when I get to it, I'm going to use the Snowflake method she suggested.

Julias post about her music, and the JANE EYRE SOUNDTRACK : was totally fabulous! Julia got me started on Dario Marianelli a few months ago, and ever since I've been hooked on the soundtrack he wrote to Atonement, and especially Jane Eyre. If you haven't read the book. Go do it now. The movie (2011 version) is superb. The script is so beautifully written, its romantic, and heart wrenching with a good dose of suspense. I've watched the movie twice in the past few days. Thats how good it is.

Hannah's post about her experience with NaNo: was yet another great post about writing a novel. Just gathering all the info here....taking it from the experts. XD Her novel also sounds goals, and you need to go read all her ideas, cause she looks like she's on her way to being a bestselling author, and you don't want to miss out on that!

Aalyiah's post about struggles: really hit me because what she said was so true, and it really connected with me. It think everyone struggles with those self-defeating feelings, but at times we feel that it is only us, and that no one else feels the same, but really they do. Everyone does. Her post was just a really big encouragement to me, and I hope it is to you as well.

Vanessa's college vlogs: are always fun to watch! I've really been enjoying following her experience, and getting a peak into life as a college student. She's also a really awesome dancer, which you need to go check out for yourself, cause I can't describe how fabulous she is!


Well, I'm off to go drink tea from an actual tea cup and saucer, (like the cups that jitter against the saucer when you carry it. I love that noise..) and isten to my beloved Jane Eyre soundtrack, *whispers* and possibly start waltzing in the kitchen, which may or may not attract odd glances from my family.

Have a wonderful weekend, my frens!