Sunday, June 25, 2017

BUCKET LIST FOR SUMMER ft. college stuff + last summer of 'teenhood' + is that even a word???? + things I learned my senior year

I have heard the expression "opening a new chapter of your life" so many times, but last month, it truly became a reality for me. It was terrifying and wonderful all at the same time. As I turned my tassel over I realized, I am done with high school, and this fall I will be venturing out into things I have never experienced. I'm leaving the familiar behind, and I'M TERRIFIED. I've never been away from my family for more than a week, and when I'm at college, I'll be away for 3 months or more without seeing them. I am scared out of my skin, but the excitement is pushing me forward. 

I have learned so much my senior year, since the earlier version of this post at the beginning of the school year sooo I'm just gonna do it over. heh heh

-Your parents love you. They have helped you come this far, and they deserve all the 'thank you's' we can give them forever and forever. Parents are pretty amazing. 

-Life isn't always easy, but it isn't all bad either. Enjoy the good times. Love others. Be happy. And live in the moment.

-Make it a point to keep up with your friends. Get together for coffee or send them a sweet note in the mail to let them know you think about them. Relationships are important, and sometimes they are hard to maintain, but its so worth it! 

-Don't let people make fun of your innocence. I have gotten teased several times in the past year about being innocent about certain things, especially by my co-workers at work. But, I guess that I've realized through that,  that being innocent is a good thing, even though you might feel stupid about not knowing one thing or the other about the world, keep that innocence as long as you can, because those people who tease, they are probably the ones who wish they had that innocence back.

-Spend time with your family as much as you can. For me, its sort of my last year in my parents house, and I know that it will be different very very soon. The summer is gonna speed by, and I just want to enjoy the last summer of being a crazy/random/weird teenager that I am, with them! 

Summer is one of my favorite seasons, and is definitely tied with fall cuz ya know, coffee, leaves, sweaters = perfection. How can you beat dat?? But with summer you don't have school, which is a MAJOR THING. Every summer I always make a bucket list, but this one is kind of special since its my last summer of being at home/ last summer of 'teenhood'. Is that even a word????? *shrugs* 
  • Go tent camping with da squad.
  • Make a funny lip syncing video.
  • Pull an all-nighter.
  • Sing songs around a bonfire with my frens.
  • Witness total solar eclipse on August 21st, 2017.
  • Attend a concert.
  • Fill a truck bed with blankets and pillows then go stargazing.
  • Make a memory jar.
  • Go kayaking again.
  • Get ice-cream from an ice-cream truck.
  • Participate in a fun run.
  • Get good at french braiding.
  • Go get frozen yogurt really late at night.
  • Go see Dunkurk with my dad.
  • Finish two songs on the piano.
  • Leave a note in a library book.
  • Dance in the rain.
  • Go swimming in a lake.
  • Watch the Parent Trap.
What are y'all's summer plans?? I know what I'll be doing all of next month, CUZ NANO STARTS IN LEGIT 5 DAYS! Time to go back to being a wreck of a hermit who hides in their room writing all day, but ya know what? I am excited. I am also nervous and scared, but whatever. Nano is gonna be awesome. 

Peace & love,


Monday, June 19, 2017

love is hard

i don't understand human cruelty.
i don't understand how people can hate each other, enough to kill.
i don't underestimate the power that humans have to be inhuman and merciless, because we see it everyday, and it terrifies me.
the world has truly gone insane.

for people to hate is such an easy, idle thing.
but to love, requires strength.
it takes courage, it takes faith and it
takes compassion to love.
and its hard.

c.r ryder

for those involved in the london attacks, the president of the usa + his family,
and all the law enforcement officers everywhere who protect us and our freedoms
you are the true heroes who understand what it means to love our enemies 

Thursday, June 15, 2017

I'm Seventeen!! feat. Photo Dump + 2017 Bible Conference + UNICORNS ACTUALLY EXIST.

I'm seventeen.

I thought this day would never come. As a little kid, the age 17 and being an actual graduate, seemed  forever away and so 'old', but right now I still feel so young. I'm still super young. Its so funny how your perspectives change from age to age. XD

I really liked being 16. It was a pretty amazing year. So much happened and I grew so much. I got my drivers license, I drove alone for the first time, I got my first 'official' job, I traveled to NYC and sang in Carnagie Hall, I graduated, I'm legit going to college! *flails* Its all happening so fast. God has blessed me soooooo much this year! I've got plans. I've got goals, and I am so ready to get started on achieving them. I want to make a difference in the world, and I never want to let that feeling die within me. I'm honestly terrified of the future, but my excitement outweighs that fear. I am ready.

But today I turned 17. I'm spending the day with my dad, and pastors family. We are out of town at an annual leadership conference in the big state of California where I will be attending Bible college, and its literally been the best. I've got to meet a lot of really amazing, genuine people, (I got to meet Ron Hamilton, who plays Patch The Pirate EPPPP SOOO COOL, cuz I literally grew up on his audio drama's) listen to some awesome preaching, take my dad to eat at his first In and Out burger, FaceTime with my bestie, meet my first official "college friend", and stay up till 1am at Marie Callenders eating pie. XD

Its been such a blast to hang out with friends, and have one-on-one time with my dad, but its also been nice to leave this conference spiritually refreshed and ready to go back to reality, feeling challenged and encouraged.

Okay, so I have some really awesome news. UNICORNS ACTUALLY EXIST. No joke, dude. Go grab your Bible, and look these verses up for yo-self. There are 9 verses that mention unicorns in the Bible, and I thought that was pretty cool, cuz you always hear about unicorns, and I personally thought they were ridiculous, but it was interesting to learn they where/are real. But SHHHHHH don't tell Starbucks. XD
  • Job 39:9  Will the unicorn be willing to serve thee, or abide by thy crib?
  • Numbers 24:8 God brought him forth out of Egypt; he hath as it were the strength of an unicorn: he shall eat up the nations his enemies, and shall break their bones, and pierce them through with his arrows
Whatcha all been up to?
Any fun summer things going on? Camps? ect.
Are ya all getting excited about NaNo?  

Sunday, June 11, 2017



sometimes i just watch people.
and sometimes i listen to what they don't say.
those words are held deep within their eyes,
screaming to be spoken.
in their eyes, i see pain
i see broken-ness
i see the hard, cold display of hate and bitterness.
i see the power of love, i see determination.
i see quiet hope.
and once in a great while, i will see those young,
bright and beautiful eyes, that seem to say,
"i am here to make a difference. i am here to change the world."
and i tell myself, "i want to be like that."